Wednesday, 15 August 2012
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Tired of the fight.
I haven't been on DA in a while; I lost a lot of my inspiration to write and put my feelings out there poetry-wise.
I feel vulnerable, and useless. It's hard when there's no way you can talk to your family about what makes you happy, because it's not good enough or because they think you're wasting your time.
"You have so much POTENTIAL, and you're squandering your time with nonsense." You wouldn't think words could cut into the very heart of you, but when they come from your sister. . . Well, let's say it's discouraging.
I feel as if I'm fighting against a current, and it feels so good when I simply float on. . .
It won't be this way forever, right?? :-x
♥Livi
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Comments (6)
So!!!! i quit sharing and just did what I wanted.
Then I got married. lol Now i do what she wants.
I think you are way to smart to let anyone including family deprive you of desired goals in life.
frank
It is amazing how often family can hurt us worse than anybody else. I've never been able to figure that out. I'm like Frank. I simply learned to 'do it my way' and not say anything to anybody. That kept most of the pain away. Eventually, I walked away from the family to live my own life and we didn't speak to each other for almost 10 years. I can't say it was right, but eventually we reconciled and moved on.
I can confirm 'it will not last forever' although it may feel like it. ((((HUGS)))), my dear.
((((HUGS))))))))
@ANVRSADDAY - Thank you : ] I don't let them dictate what I do, and I HAVE friends that provide support. The sting's still there, regardless :( I've always been too sensitive a kid!
♥L
@MzSilver - My mom never understood why one of my sisters and I aren't very close; she doesn't get the fact that we don't deny our blood relations- we're just not friends!! (This isn't the sister mentioned in the blog, either. . . That's probably why it bothers me :(. ) My oldest sister had always been my one pillar in our family (I'm a bit of a black sheep), but as I grow older and come into my own she can't understand the path I'm choosing. It also hurts because her daughter, my niece, is the biggest and brightest light in my life, and I can't share as much with her because my sister is afraid I'll influence her the wrong way. . . I'll always do my own thing, and make my own decisions, but it'd be nice if it didn't feel like a battle needed to be fought! Lol
♥L
@a_thousandmiles - Thank you for the *hug*! ^.^
♥L